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this past few months have been very suprising. i got to know a lot of things from him that i have never imagined to hear.but i know i have to put it all behind me cause it only are matters of the past.i know i have to be strong for the future. n i know our future is uncertain but i'll pray for the best. being in a relationship is no joke like it use to be a year ago. it takes more than lovely walk and sweet talks. every single action u take will hurt one another. things get serious. fights get worse n hearts get scratches all over.no more honeymoon period they say. ouh well... im trying hard to push all the thoughts away. im trying hard to be a good girlfriend.. im trying hard to accept things the way they are. im constantly burdened by guilt and worriedness.. could u not spare a tot 4 me n understand my feelings... if i had wanted, i cud have left this place, it is because i believe we can make this better, u wud treat me better, n things wud be much better n i love u, tts the reason i stay.. fi3 once said, this is just one of another hardships of a relationship.. n im practising to get myself ready 4 the future. well this few months have been a lot for me. i start to question my position cause i feel threatened. insecure. u did it once.u may do it once again. but im trying to believe u won't. im trusting u.. i putting hope in u.. n i hope i wun be dissappointed by u. i hope u'll put my hope on you to good use..
