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Labels: brain cramp It dropped like a bomb. A serious kamikaze troop attaching themselves to a nuclear bomb. As dramatic as it sounds, it wasn’t really a big deal. The past two weeks haven’t been easy. Constant nightmares, insecurity, reassessment of feelings…..all due to, lack of judgement??? I have no idea what its all about and why all of it is actually happening. It hasn’t been easy before this and its not making things any easier now.
I know I shouldn’t bore into the past but what can I do, I was born to be a girl??? But it is said that, curiosity does kill the cat. So will the same curiosity kill me too??? My reports are pilling and I just don’t have the drive to do so. This mind is tired. Very very tired of thinking of ways to save it and what I believe that can save is actually know what went wrong in the past. I’m afraid, that is beyond hope, cause I’ve been given clear instructions to steer away from the past and look to the present. This is not making things easier for me yet again. Just hear me out here. I am not finding fault with you but I just hope you see from my point of view that I need the past to make the future better. As the saying goes, we need to learn from mistakes, and I implore you, I need to. Reminiscing about it is no plan of mine. I just need to know for the sake of knowing.
I just need to know, so I can learn to let go, cause as long as I don’t, it will stay this way…
