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Labels: delegation when the times you give in or when my tears start flowing like Niagra Falls... problems are meant to be settled together... not oneself... and i want to make it clear just in case people think or judge me as a selfish person, in fact i am, at times, i admit, but this time, its just his plain confused mind...
and i have to quote from fitri's blog, you can never please everyone and yourself all together... the facts of life is utterly cruel... but life is all about give-and-take... and when you think over it again, it all makes sense...
when you give love, you deserve to have some back, and fitri, when you give kindness, i believe you deserve some from me back...
perhaps i am dumb enough to be in the prospects of letting go of this happiness where i can have the two most important people in my life happy... maybe words just cannot put together a beautiful symphony or harmony of how much both of you mean in my life... but this does not mean that you put aside your own happiness and friendship for me... i have never obstruct you from being friends... both of you know that... but irwan, i'm seriously tired of being kept in the dark...
we all know that first loves can never be erased from our minds, i myself cannot put myself to see my first love each and everyday in this very same lab that i'm in, but,i have learn to let go... i love you now...
its a matter of moving on... and i believe and know you have done so too... but don't make things difficult as it is already for fitri... you don't know how much she has gone through because of us... you asked her that kind of question... how could you...
i am in touch and face my first love everyday... you know that... and you still allowed me to be friends with him... why the hell were you thinking that i will not do the same for you?
i just don't get it... but one thing i understood was that natural feeling you meant... sometimes i do get that natural feeling around him... but that is what they call infatuation... look it up in the dictionary... you'll get what it means...
i don't want to make it sound like everything is your fault but you dig your own grave... perhaps you two need to meet up and talk things out... cause i'm sure you both still keep questions that you hope will be answered but you leave it to disappear...
i already told you, i'm open with this...
and there is a saying that goes :"Not everything that is yours now,Will forever be yours,Unless you fight to
keep it."
