There seems to be a reason for everything. The ones happening and the ones that are over. I try to convince myself that there is still light at the end of the tunnel. Mainly, my greatest challenge right now is my own self. I'm struggling to get my self and my emotions straight. Contemplating on my each and every move. Judging and self-mocking due to the state of confusion. I know what I need to choose and be but I can't help but think if there's a way out of this. The way of no grudge or self-hate surfacing from it.

Who am I kidding... These things are bound to end ugly. Plus we're bound to hate and curse if it were to happen.

Is there no resolution to this? A comfort that doesn't drive us to denial. A strong belief that would not chance upon every ounce of understanding and simply run over it; mimicking a stampede.

Should I run or should I go and make peace?
This...
I can't decide...

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