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The heat of the sunshine down on her revealed her whitewashed face. The torment of her pain has caused her blood to drain off her face. Her mouth too dry to speak. She felt the whole room spinning around her.
All this is no stranger to her. She has been through this 'so-called' morning routine almost every night after she reached the age of 11. Slowly, the pain grew inside her. Painkillers only bring more pain and her supply of sleeping pills have depleted. She could no longer have that peace on drugs.
Anna, diagnosed with brittle bone disease, extremely low self-esteem. The result of a broken home and in need of peace Her parents separated because of her piling hospital bills that they can't handle. She was unwanted. Both her parents would just ignore her when she's screaming pain. At times, when she's at her father's house. He would slap her asking her to shut up so that he could watch TV. Heartless Humans.
Due to this illness, she failed her 'O' Levels. Always being sick and unable to attend school. Then, one day, she decided, she no longer wants to live with her parents no more. The emotional torment of being the rejected child suffering from an incurable disease. She no longer wants to be a burden to anyone. She rented a house up in Toa Payoh with her sister. Her parents were not agreeable to let go her sister. Her sister was so furious that she left with Anna.
A one room flat was all that she could afford from the littlest allowance that her parents handed down to her and her sister had to work to support them. She was lucky her sister, who was healthier, was there to be with her. But her sister had to work in the morning. Therefore, she'll be left all alone, unmoving on a thin piece of mattress that they found when they moved there. It smelt like stale meat pie, but she had no choice, she wasn't able to withstand cold surfaces. That was all they could afford. With the monthly maintenance and Anna's hospital bills, there was no way they could afford luxury. They couldn't even afford to buy a sofa.
Anna felt guilty. She wished she could do something about herself. Its more heart rending when she overheard her sister praying one night, "Dear God, please lighten Anna's pain. Let her be well again. Let her feel what its like to live. I'm willing to bear her illness for her if there was at least a day that she could feel no more pain. ". Each and every time she flashed back upon what her sister said, her soul rumbled in anger, as she was so helpless.
At times, she has the urge to take her life away. But being strong in religion, she knows it will only bring her to hell. She knew she had to brace up. She took a decision that she should endure every pain and live like normal. Right this moment, Anna is living by her sister. Well and alive. She’s even driven to take her 'o' levels again. She has a part-time job and helps her sister with her bills. She still feels pain at times, but she has learn to put on a smile and have learn to endure that excruciating pain. It takes determination and strength for a swimmer to reach the other end of the pool. But it only takes a prayer and love to conquer all odds.
realize what we have till its gone. But if a person that is in sickness can
overcome all odds to make herself better for someone. Then, why don't we, the
healthy ones, appreciate life and take things in our stride."
