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I was there in three forms?
Anyway, I was reminded of Ain's Secondary School Rhyme.
It sings to the tune Baa Baa Black Sheep.
Try it yourself!
So FUNNY!!!Baa Baa Kambing Hitam,
Kau ada bulu?
Ye Tuan! Ye Tuan!
Tiga beg penuh.
Satu untuk Tuan,
dan satu untuk Puan,
lagi satu beg untuk budak di tepi jalan
and i seek attention from whom i cherish 1:00:00 am
We humans tend to maunder our minds to the unnecessary.
I admit that I do find myself doing something else than what was planned.
Is it called lack of discipline?
Or do we really actually lack faith and understanding?
Some of the people I meet, across their lives tend to take things too lightly.
Or am I the one whose taking things too hard?
Well, I believe, even the most pious person have limits to their patience.
No one is perfect.
And this world is definitely not perfect.
If it were to be a perfect world, there's no longer the meaning of purpose in life.
That's why we need to prove to society, that our race is not disappointing as almost all the tabloids claim this days.
Yes.
It's very disappointing to see our fellow youths.
Led astray.
And I question myself.
I also feel ashamed.
For not being able to bring them out of that ridiculous cycle.
For not being strong and willful enough.
So who should we blame for this chaos that has shadowed itself above us.
Who do we blame when we are sterotyped?
Who else but ourselves?
For indirectly, we contribute ourselves to fellow juveniles.
Because we failed to reach out.
Everything takes initiative.
Even Crime.
So if robbers can succesfully plan robbery,
why can't we come up with a plan save them from being robbers?
Get the link?
Friday, February 08, 2008 Expectations or just too much? 11:46:00 pm
Do you expect someone to be there everytime you're sad, stressed or troubled?
Event though if that person has no idea what to do to comfort you?
Does one miss call define your care for someone?
Does crying in front of you disturbs you or irks you?
How do you depict the picture above?
I'll expect you to watch over when I'm sleeping???
You'll expect me to be there every time you're down...
But I was never? Or were you hardly there???
A little too much???
Then, tell me what's not enough...
Define the meaning of expectations.
You decide.
It doesn't hurt to endure the attitude cause we know we're not angry. We're just frustrated. I think I've been reasonable enough. The time you have now should be spent with me. Not with that four sided thing that you've face every hour of this holiday! LoL...
Thursday, January 31, 2008 life's a cliche 10:31:00 pmCAUSE YOU MAKE ME FEEL....
LIKE A NATURAL WOMAN.....
that is just so random. Current emotion: Feeling super pissed. a week left till hell breaks loose. I have yet to study for quiz and be prepared for interview next monday!!! that day couldn't have been better!!!
Thursday, January 17, 2008 reeking with crap 12:23:00 amI'm sleepy, wake me up.
He's sleepy, let him sleep.
Issues with him.
One can never can enough sleep.
Should I change the brand?
Or should I add preservatives.
This is not meant to be understood.
If only I had the answer.
I think I need to puasa sunat ready.
Tuesday, December 04, 2007 My new found friend 2:33:00 am
this is what that is accompanying me tonight.you see what i mean dear?its fun to use but with our lecturer's "unvoiced" videos for tutorial,it so confusing!!!!!!!
Monday, December 03, 2007 CCOM 1:39:00 pmWe only knew the lesson was cancelled only when we reached the classroom!!! my goodness!!!
now i'm left with nothing to do for the hour. Hungry but i have another break later on at 3... so i'm just digressing instead of doing the undone review questions for CAOS. i might be gone for sometime this coming weeks.. for it Term Test Time... I'll be back in two weeks!!!! ;)
P.S : Fitri, Azizun and all me teletubbies friends!!! You Are ALL Missed!!!
Sunday, November 25, 2007 24 more days 3:55:00 amCan i have sunset as the gift,
candlelight dinner by the beach?
a room filled with chocolates?
a bed filled with blooming roses?
someone to spend my day with me,
right up to the very last minute, end? i'm keeping my options open...;), =) , :p
Thursday, July 19, 2007 Lips Of An Angel 5:05:00 pmSome words just fall on deaf ears...
Friday, June 29, 2007 staring into the corner,feeling rather cold,imagining the cute guy,the one my friend just told. at least i get to dream,not further as to hold,at least this dream doesn't shatter,even when i'm old. for now the ears are listening to this :
Friday, June 22, 2007 “This fancy things
Will never come between.
You’re part of my entity,
If for infinity.”
; Mysteriously unfathomable
“So why does your pride make you run and hide?
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what you keep inside.
This is not how you wanted to be.”
; Plea for apprehension
“Cause every moment,
We share together,
Is even better than the moment before,
If everyday was,
As good as today was,
Then I can’t wait till tomorrow comes.”
; Hopelessly romantic
“Last night,
I couldn't even get an answer.
Tried to call,
but my pride wouldn't let me dial.
And I'm sitting here,
with this blank expression.
And the way I feel,
I want to curl up like a child.”
; Gratified demeanor
“Saying that I love you,
But you know,
this thing ain't been
No walk in the park for us
I swear it'll only take a minute
You'll understand when I finish,
And I don't want to see you cry
But I don't want to be the one to tell you a lie so.”
; Dilemma
Thursday, June 07, 2007 stress brings me my high!!! 3:21:00 pmPRESENTATION = "FULL OF CRAP" LECTURER = "YAYA PAPAYA" me = "I can't be bothered mode" little me = "can't wait to know what i'm going to get later on!!!" P.S: i really want to know what i can do to actually upgrade ME! Pentium ZeeLeeon anyone???
Friday, June 01, 2007 don't give up unless you've tried a thousand times!!! 4:08:00 pmI’ll keep moving on
By me
The heat of the sunshine down on her revealed her whitewashed face. The torment of her pain has caused her blood to drain off her face. Her mouth too dry to speak. She felt the whole room spinning around her.
All this is no stranger to her. She has been through this 'so-called' morning routine almost every night after she reached the age of 11. Slowly, the pain grew inside her. Painkillers only bring more pain and her supply of sleeping pills have depleted. She could no longer have that peace on drugs.
Anna, diagnosed with brittle bone disease, extremely low self-esteem. The result of a broken home and in need of peace Her parents separated because of her piling hospital bills that they can't handle. She was unwanted. Both her parents would just ignore her when she's screaming pain. At times, when she's at her father's house. He would slap her asking her to shut up so that he could watch TV. Heartless Humans.
Due to this illness, she failed her 'O' Levels. Always being sick and unable to attend school. Then, one day, she decided, she no longer wants to live with her parents no more. The emotional torment of being the rejected child suffering from an incurable disease. She no longer wants to be a burden to anyone. She rented a house up in Toa Payoh with her sister. Her parents were not agreeable to let go her sister. Her sister was so furious that she left with Anna.
A one room flat was all that she could afford from the littlest allowance that her parents handed down to her and her sister had to work to support them. She was lucky her sister, who was healthier, was there to be with her. But her sister had to work in the morning. Therefore, she'll be left all alone, unmoving on a thin piece of mattress that they found when they moved there. It smelt like stale meat pie, but she had no choice, she wasn't able to withstand cold surfaces. That was all they could afford. With the monthly maintenance and Anna's hospital bills, there was no way they could afford luxury. They couldn't even afford to buy a sofa.
Anna felt guilty. She wished she could do something about herself. Its more heart rending when she overheard her sister praying one night, "Dear God, please lighten Anna's pain. Let her be well again. Let her feel what its like to live. I'm willing to bear her illness for her if there was at least a day that she could feel no more pain. ". Each and every time she flashed back upon what her sister said, her soul rumbled in anger, as she was so helpless.
At times, she has the urge to take her life away. But being strong in religion, she knows it will only bring her to hell. She knew she had to brace up. She took a decision that she should endure every pain and live like normal. Right this moment, Anna is living by her sister. Well and alive. She’s even driven to take her 'o' levels again. She has a part-time job and helps her sister with her bills. She still feels pain at times, but she has learn to put on a smile and have learn to endure that excruciating pain. It takes determination and strength for a swimmer to reach the other end of the pool. But it only takes a prayer and love to conquer all odds.
realize what we have till its gone. But if a person that is in sickness can
overcome all odds to make herself better for someone. Then, why don't we, the
healthy ones, appreciate life and take things in our stride."
Monday, May 28, 2007 which communicator are you? 9:50:00 amCommunication is the essentials to avoid confusions and misgivings. Its important to keep every relation alive and well. Unfortunately, miscommunication is inevitable. Its due to us, humans, judging the latter is of non-importance or we are just ignorant to discuss about matters that has passed.
In my opinion, no one is able to fathom each other. Each person has a way of expressing their sentimentality to others. Be it anger, hatred, or pure sadness. People can even have mixed feelings about the environment surrounding them. Despite all this, every person hopes or even assume other people can understand their feeling without them mentioning it. Intuition perhaps?
I am tired of hearing squabbles all around and extremely tired of being in it. I hate being the middle person trying to resolve a conflict. It is not that I don’t want to help but it just tormenting to see people quarrelling in front of me. Both shouting in anger and demanding to be heard.
Humans also have this tendency to be clingy to their expectations. Perfectionist are the worst. They want each and every intricate detail to be worked out and they will never accept “NO” for an answer. There are some who set expectation in silence and when they don’t see their end result, they are only left with self-disappointment.
This is why communication is essential.
Friday, May 25, 2007 difference of what i need, and what i get 1:47:00 pm3 curry puffs and a vitasoy.... that is what I had for lunch... simple yet filling... while listening to jordin sparks version of 'This Is My Now' Live American Idol Version... What an uplifting song... It plays with the emotions and makes us come out strong...
Seeing an eerie looking wisdom tooth and Seaweed Shaker Fries made my day yesterday... I’m gaining on my food intake as well as the fats... no. I'm not fat... just a little fleshy... that should put my heart at rest for a while... haha...
Today is like the record day where I ate this less.... since school term started... I have been on a "so-called" binging spree after being granted authorization for 15 minutes tea-break twice a day plus an hours lunch ... so now, I officially eat, 5 times a day... I wonder how much have I gained...
moving on, I remembered a friend asking me, how does each gender find a life partner? At 14 years old, I used to think that, he has to be rich, cause I want to buy everything in the world. He should also be smart and know how to make money. Love and other things too... but when I think about it, its impossible. Not that there are no rich man out there, but money doesn't bring you anywhere after life. It cannot buy happiness neither can it buy a friendship. And it doesn't only take love to make everything perfect. Life is definitely no fairytale with happy endings but we can live that fake life if we want to or we can be a realist and just accept, come what may, tolerate and go through it as if it was the first time, every time...
I watch one of the documentaries about attraction of the opposite genders and a quote from them may generally be true, but I’m not trying to be sexist here. It says:"Men get attracted to women because of their beauty, but most women get
attracted to men because of their heart."
Thursday, May 17, 2007 you don't know the frustration when you can't cheer someone up 9:23:00 pmi was fairly hardworking both yesterday and today.. finally finish four weeks of report today... dead tired.. met up with him today... unfortunately, private time was destroyed due to the presence of his friend...
darn, we are in dire need of private time... where we can talk anything under the sun... time seems to have distance itself from me... what a pity i cannot run after it...
or is it i'm feeling this way after the much filling dinner after an empty stomach for lunch...
i want to eat ice cream, but he doesn't want to...
things are not so common nowadays...
now i sound like a seemingly pathetic idiot who can't take control of their own emotions... its hard to be a woman... and its hard being a man... should i have just said, its hard being human???
reading mr aw's posts is terrific especially after hours of brain-squeezing any technical words i could find... how i wish it doesn't take that long to load... no offence mr aw, you seriously need an archive! keke... i've grab something funny from his blog... i hope you don't mind me sir!Clever marketing move:Create a story of how a boy becomes fascinated with killer
whales. He carves a piece of wood into the shape of a whale's tail and wears it.
He grows up to be a killer whale-keeper at SeaWorld and becomes "hero" to the
little kids. The whales "respond" to him because he wears the pendant and is,
thus, their "friend". And you know how cute Killer Whales are, every kid wants
to be a friend of a killa whale. He gives wooden pendant to a selected kid who
"wants to become a vet when she grows up". Suddenly, the pendant is a symbol of
friendship that killer whales "recognise". Now every kid in the stadium wants
one. What to do? Sell them for 5 bucks each outside. How do I know they are
making big money? Flip the tail over and it says "Made in Indonesia" on a little
sticker.So this is what I'm gonna do when I get back:Film a little story about how a
little boy wants to become a geography teacher. He makes a pendant from a piece
of granite. Students respond to him because he wears the pendant and they
recognise that it is the symbol of friendship. And we all know how cute students
are. Every kid wants to be friends with a teenager. The pendant becomes a symbol
of friendship with students. Now everyone wants one. I'll be selling them at
Orchard MRT.
extremely hillarious!!!! ( in any case, that you don't get it, read it here
and it kills when you can't cheer someone up when they are down...
Thursday, May 03, 2007 q u i t e t r u e . . . . 2:11:00 pmSatu hari CINTA & KAWAN berjalan dalam kampung... Tiba-tiba CINTA terjatuh dalam telaga... Kenapa?? Kerana CINTA itu buta.. Lalu KAWANpun ikut terjun dalam telaga... Kenapa?? Kerana... KAWAN akan buat apa sahaja demi CINTA!! Di dalam telaga CINTA hilang... Kenapa?? Kerana... CINTA itu halus, mudah hilang kalau tak dijaga, sukar dicari apatah lagi dalam telagayang gelap...Sedangkan KAWAN masih lagi tercari-cari dimana CINTA & terus menunggu.. Kenapa?? Kerana... KAWAN itu sejati & akan kekal sebagai KAWAN yang setia...kan?? so, hargai lahKAWAN kita selagi kita terasa dia BERERTI....
Walau kita punya couple, teman still paling setia. Walau kita punya harta banyak, teman still paling berharga.
i d o n t k n o w ! ! ! 9:14:00 amits true that in relationships, one has to give in and initiate the reconciliation... but at times we just feel tired of telling him what we think is right, cause most of the time, its treated just as a passing remark...
i don't want to sound as if he made us miserable all our life... cause he did not... but the fact that changes are taking place.. it is such a big challenge to us that sometimes , we hurt each other just to please the other people around us... the matter is, where do you draw the line between choosing us and our friends... we would rather choose our friends and he believes so in spending more times with friends... but at times we feel, we're willing to let go, like we don't actually need, not wanted and not needed for now...
we feel like a leaf, floating on water... not being able to pull ourselves to the shore or even drown... we want to spent time with friends too... but we would like to have each other around too... this complicate things more when there a restriction placed on you...
so how do you make both sides happy? or should you keep yourself happy and end up hurting either sides... which do we choose? or perhaps none and just let everything go?
i don't want my friends to think that i'm making him more important then them but at the same time i don't want him to feel neglected... although he puts on the "i don't mind if you go out with your friends and neglect me" kind of attitude, i know him, that he does feel lonely, or at least that's what i think...
the problem is i don't know what he's actual thinking is.. what and who is actually in his mind right now... and because of his i get jealous if i see the resemblance of her in him... there are so much simillarities between them that sometimes i feel, we don't suit each other cause we have nothing in common...
i sometimes think that she will be the better one, she will be the supportive one and he deserve her than me kind of feeling... and when i question him, he say , " i don't know"...
usually people say i don't know because either they don't want to hurt your feelings by saying yes or they are just plain confused.... should i just leave him to think or invade in his mind... "i don't know"... how does that sound???
